August 1982

August 1982
Jason, 5 years old & Echo, 3 years old

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Fate or Coincidence?

Don't worry, I am not about to delve into a philosophical discussion on the journey of life - however, I must say that sometimes I am both freaked out and reassured by the way life happens.

After my last couple of posts and some of the comments and emails I have received regarding them, I had begun to question why I was on this quest. Everyone keeps telling me that they "hope I find what I am looking for"....hmm, I did not realize I was actually looking for something. Well something beyond the ability to answer some basic questions about my father. You know, his favorite color, political beliefs, most embarrassing moment - nothing really earth shattering.

But, being a woman, over analyzing is a special talent of mine, so I really started to think maybe there was something more. But after Friday, I am confident that I really am not looking for something specific - I am not some lost soul searching for the answers to life's questions.  I have pretty much known who I am, and what I want since I was a little girl, and I have never had a problem expressing this to anyone in my life (with no apologies). Some may find that statement appalling, others powerful. To be honest, I don't really care. But it is important to me that all of you understand this. Nothing you are going to tell me about Paul will destroy me, and my life and world will probably not be altered much by any revelations you share. I really would just like to be able to tell my child one day (mom - don't get excited, I am NOT pregnant!) a little bit about her grandfather.

So what was the event that made me think, yes I am doing this at the right time and with the right intention? Well, as I was walking out of the Danville Bev Mo Friday afternoon, I ran into Ingrid. One of my father's lifelong friends. We chatted for a few moments, and I promised to email her and set up a time where we can chat about Paul. Why is this significant? Well, I have lived in the Danville area off and on for my entire life. I have worked in Danville for the past 8 years. I spend a lot of time at Danville restaurants and shops. And yet, this is the first time since high school I have ever run into Ingrid - who has lived there since before my father passed. Fate or coincidence? Your call, but whatever it is, it definitely reaffirmed my quest.

Thanks for following - and keep spreading the word!

P.S. How cool would it be if we could connect to someone who was part of Paul's world sailing adventure? Maybe you can help....

1 comment:

  1. Hi Echo- My mom just told me she ran into you! I had asked her if she had been in contact with you and I think it's so funny how life works sometimes.

    I hope you guys can sync up soon and she and my dad can fill you in on some interesting stories (which, by the way, I don't know).

    Reading your blog clues me in as well to someone who was once considered one my dad's great friends. :)

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